Loveless

It's way too late to say I love you!

my fear is paying off!

I lose you..

I lose you...

for my entire life

I'm the most stupid person ever!

My shadow haunts me everyday for this mistake

I let you go easily..

I give that b*tch chance to get closer to you..

and 'good bye' was your last words I heard on that day

You've waited me for quite long time,

but I was too scare to move..

I love you, but I couldn't get you..

She were between us..

trying to get your attention and sending me to this broken bridge

Noooo.. she won the war!

I regret it..

you might think I never tried!

YES.. such a big mistake for me..!

I let you go easily..

and it's hurting me now...

I still wish we could be together again..

but after this long time..

why it seems like you've changed?

you praise her and start loving her?

does she really love you?

does she give her best to you?

I have doubt…

you stare at me and smile,

softly you whisper to me, "yes, she does and I love her so much"

I’m breathless…

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Only Best Friend.. -Broken Heart Poetry

Why….

you stare at her only when I were sitting next to you..

why…

you praise her only like a million kryptonite when I always there beside you,

why…

she seems to be so much worthy for you,

I’m like a crap!

I couldn't pretend myself,

I’m the first hurt when you were sad,

I’m the first worry when you get scared,

and I’m always here..

listen how exciting you told me about her,

listen your song made for her..

see how you fall in love,

you don’t ever realize how I look at you deeply,

my face was plain, you are the only in my heart,

expecting there’s a little hole in your deep heart for me,

Is it possible?

If I were lost, will you try to find me?

or you just don’t care?

I’m only your best friend..

only best friend…

you can find another me..

in Mars may be..

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When I Say Good Bye….

It’s time to say good bye…

this is the end…

not end of anything,

but my ordinary day…

It’s time for me to say good bye,

the rain has gone, my rainbow was appearing,

it was not colorful,

too dark and look pale…

It’s time for me to say good bye..

good bye is hurt, memories is hurting too…

I know something left within…

I can’t take it back…

can’t take it back…

It’s time for me to say good bye..

thank you my dear…

see you in a glance may relieve me..

but it’s my end already...of everything,

It’s time for me to say good bye,

well. I’m not in grieve..

well, I’m not in regret,

and I’m not sad,

everything’s fine for me

I’m glad passing the moment with you..

the memories follow me..

stay in my heart forever

when I say good bye and see your “good-bye smile”..

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Almost The Time- Broken Heart Poetry

It’s almost the time,

when I can’t stand anymore and wish to get out of your life,

I’m tired , deep down, and frustrated,

with all of your lies and misbehaves

I cry, well you don’t have to know..

I’m the hero of your life, exactly I’m not!

I give up, well you don’t have to understand

all that you’ve got, I’m the tough one

this just you don’t really know me!

I’m weak..

trapped into my valley and keep my pain in silence,

three years was full of sacrifice,

it’s enough for me to get off,

I’m give up…

as you expected..

you said I’m a great person..

well, you never saw my frightened  above my own shadow,

you thought I’m strong and ready to die for,

that you can’t read me when I was smile in fake

I pretend, indeed…

I was pretending and act so well…

I thought you will know since you claim understand me

but it’s false..,

false… false and false…

to be with you was my biggest mistake then!

and it’s almost the time

for me to give  it up and show my white flag,

end of my journey..

end of my fight…

end of my sacrifice…

end of my dedication…

my salvation bag is ready to go…

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After Years....

After years…

I thought you really care about me,

I thought I was so much mean for you

but after she came,

the dust swept away by the wind blow

You always put me on first,

I’m glad doing things for you,

no matter small it is, you just smile..

make me feel so deep and sincere about you

but after years, after she came…

at the sudden everything changed

The moment we through together,

the way we listen to each other,

the way we discuss and debate till the dawn end,

slowly disappear..

You may never know how much I love you,

you may never know how much I care about you,

you never know how worth time for me when we were together

you never know it..!!

After years,

After she came to your life,

such as misery for me, she took all of mine from you

I regret of her presence,

like a stormy wave, I want to stop her

I want to send her to kryptonite so you had reason to come back to me

but….

do I really have to do that?

After years…

will you remember me even in seconds?

will you take back our sweet moment in a flash?

will you left her for a while and smile at me?

will you stare at my eyes and taste my deep down feeling?

will you sit down and listen my story again?

I said I don’t mind become your second best,

as long as you spent your little time to me..

I don’t mind become the substitute of her,

In fact I can’t live without you..!!

After years,

will you consider me as one of your life partner?

will you take me to spend the night,

 just one night with you?

After years...,

will you leave her for me?

will you allow your shoulder for me to cry on?

will you give your arms for me to hug?

will you?

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When I Get Older, I still Always Remember You

I’m trying hard to turn back the time,

finding it hard to move on and leaving it all behind..

It’s never clear for me!

the reason why you were gone..

Deep in my heart,

I still could feel the love you brought to my life,

It was the very first time for me,

you were the only one understand me very well,

You were the one listen to me,

You were the one makes me smile for the whole day,

we were fit on each other..

I was experience less, act like the innocent man,

you knew me, I wasn't man who know how to treat girl,

then I just let it flow, without trying to give you more attention

every moment be bygone,

erased by the power of wind..

slowly

The summer has gone,

the last leaves have fallen..

You said it was your last chance to see me,

I didn’t understand..

but felt surprised and sad!!

I wouldn't comfort to spend my days without you,

I wouldn't ready..

I knew.. I would not…

You had to leave this town..

I was breathless,

something in my heart said,

I don’t want to lost you

really, I sworn..

I didn’t want to lose you…!

I couldn’t hide my sorry..

way too late!

she may hurt..

waiting for my response, but just an empty seat!

I promised will case over you,

I vowed for you..

“please wait, soon you will see me…”

you were always stay in my mind,

never forget you even in seconds,

soon we will be together again..

to continue our tale..

Five years after…

I jumped over seas for you,

walked thousand miles and through this empty way street,

became stranger, against the world outside,

my soul is in fire

I was not easy..

till I found you in a small home,

but nothing is the same,

you were so cold to me!

You don’t even remember me, but I recognize you even in a glance

You said, “you got a wrong person”

I reminded you our memories,

the unforgettable moment we shared on the winter and spring

the laughed we threw each other when playing in the sand

You kept saying, “hey, you got a wrong person”

I knew it’ve been very long time!

I didn't give up..

I showed you our picture together when we hug each other in the train,

You smile, but cry..

I see tears flew from your beautiful eyes,

You stare at me, saying “I’m a married woman”

then you sat down, feel so settled..

I stare at you, you stare back at me..

I could see our love through your eyes still that strong,

but love is never enough when we can't be together as one

I should be that man on the photograph..

standing next to you on the wedding stage..

How long it was, I can’t remember,

everything remind the same,

in my mind, you were still here,

and today I still hold my promise,

hold this vow forever..

Our memories were too beautiful

I  can’t lie the age anyway..!!

I can’t manipulate the time…

I can’t stop it!

and when I get older,

right when this hair turn into the grey,

I will always remember you,

the one who teach me how to love and laugh

the one told me about brave and life

even  get older, I still always remember you

I will always love you to death

always….

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The Betrayal

No more argue,

no more effort to attract your attention..

I understand why you've changed…

I understand why you always hide when I ask for a date,

I understand why you threat me different now!

it's clear!

No more explanation,

no more fake..

It’s enough to pretend in front of me!

you have no single word to say…

and your eyes couldn't lie anymore!

I know how much you love me…before!

so, you let her stay within us?

okay it's hurt me so much… but I guess that’s enough,

Now, go find someone else!!

I had put all of my heart in you,

No doubt anymore!

I still couldn't believe you've betrayed me,

It feels too hurt to move on..

It’s more than a broken glasses

It’s a more hurt than thousands tears in amazon rivers,

Those four years is not a short time!!

This betrayal….. too deep to forget it

Leave me!

you’ve burnt my faith!

don’t you see I give all things you want?

don’t you understand I've sacrificed everything for you?

and you made those worth things we did together seems to be disappear,

you sent our sweet moment into a trash basket,

How could you!!

I cry...

Please, leave!!

Don’t try to call me anymore!

I don’t want to see your face even in a glance,

I don’t want to remember you!

I don’t want to remember this!!

No pardon, No beg, No sorry!

I wanna close this fake fairy tale!

no more you in my dictionary!

no more you in my memory!!

Leave me alone!

and let me cry out loud all alone..

and time will help me to understand,

this will be very long time..

this will give me such as beautiful lesson,

that once upon a time… I had you!

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