It is Rain!

It is 00.40 am,

I was sitting on my bed room and type an article,

I turn the light off,

and it is rain

I feel so blessed for each rain,

the water pouring down from the sky,

wash us with the feeling mercy,

make me feel so enough today

it is rain,

I raise my hand and pray,

“Lord, protect us! Protect my husband and my little angel.. save us from trouble and keep us warm”

I sank in the serenity and deep in peace,

suddenly I hear the voice speak to me softly,

“close your notebook, go to sleep and hug your baby girl in warm embrace”

tThis room getting so colder and colder,

I have been so busy lately, have very few time for her,

“Oh, God, please forgive me!”

I am going to turn off my computer now,

it is still rain,

and all I want to do is to sleep beside my daughter and hug her

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Home… HOME…

Home… HOME….

I just want to come back HOME!

so tired of being here…

there’s no rainbow around,

and the butterfly is dying out there,

I can’t see my future

I was set to be settled!

crap for more..

Home… HOME…

Please stop time and bring me back

there’s no rainbow anymore

I’m sad to be here

I was set to be settled!

Home…. HOME…

I can’t stand to be here,

I can’t imagine stay away from you too long!

I was set to be settled!

please just…

please just…

stop the time and bring me HOME!

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Except You Lost Your Both Leg!

What a phenomenon!!

something called “PLEASE HELP!!”,

they shout it out again, “PLEASE HELP!!”,

“HELLO, I NEED YOUR HELP!!”,

“PLEASE HELP, NOW!!”

sounds so noisy like a thousand bats fly on the crowded of night sky. . . .

I don’t think it’s alright,

“PLEASE HELP” sounds like a trash now!

they’re young, tough and gorgeous!

they seems able to hold the world in their hand,

but then I just hear, “PLEASE HELP!”

they don’t know how to user their power and keep asking!

They’re okay and looks great,

I do hear that they laugh out loud and have nothing to do,

but then I just hear, “HELLO, CAN YOU HELP ME WITH THIS??”

*sigh…

they should able to do what they begging about!!

they don’t have to say “Hey, PLEASE HELP”

way toooooo boring!

I do love helping each other,

but seeing someone like you…

pfffiiiuuhhhh… just take my breath and let go!

you act like part of The Royal

and It's pretty weird when..

“Begging Help” is your culture,

“Asking Other” is your philosophy,

“Blame if yours were not succeed” is your life,

everyday is about “Please help  this!”… “Please help  this!”,

each minute is sounds like “Can you do this for me?”… “Can you do this?”,

and every hours is about “Hey, I have tell you this before, Why do not clear yet?! Oh, How Stupid!!”

SUCK!!

Let me tell you now,

before you ask “PLEASE HELP”, come on looks outside!

disabilities will help you to understand!

each turn, in a way one street,

old people fight to feed their family by working hard

their sweat pouring down like the rain water,

and they won’t begging for help even their both leg may disappear,

they won’t stop even they might hungry,

and  their eyes seems too weak to face the cruel of this world,

but they don’t give up..

“HELP” is not their culture!!

so, as you’re the healthy young, please make difference!!

throw away your “PLEASE HELP” and “BLAME OTHER” culture

Stop complain!

do something more!

make  a change..

create new path!

So this is the truth :

You’re SUCK!

You’re TRASH!!

but you never realize!!!!

so you better go to HELL!!

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Something You Believe May Deceive You!

People always think,

that I’m very mature, smart, independent and know-what-to-do girl,

that I can do things I want to..

that I’m genius!

that I’m gorgeous!

and they bet I’m so brilliant and perfect!

For me.. not that high!

If they look deep in me,

I’m just another teenagers..

they will find me as the emotional girl,

the one who sensitive, ambitious, selfish and miss the affection,

I'm not that brilliant..

not..!

I want to talk active, but then felt so weird,

I want to live in my comfort zone, but never found it around,

I want to be so cheer, but my child memory about my mom’s death was too real

I want to be rejoice, but the shadow of hurt haunt me in every foot step,

I want to smile, but they told me nothing to smile..

I want to scream, but I have no space…

I want to cry but I told myself I don’t have to…

Plain!

It’s like I live in a wrong place…

like wrong person in wrong situation…

I’m the stranger myself!

Hide all your perspective about me!

you don’t know me!

you don’t know me!

you don’t know me at all!

Don’t praise me!

you know nothing about me!

you know nothing…

I’m strong enough!

I’m strong enough!

that's all things you know!

I wish I’m strong enough too..!

but I’m not!

Fly away...ignore me,

I’m fine here,

I don’t even need your wings!

I crawl to get there!

You’d never know who I am…

I don’t need a hand to touch you,

I don’t need a soul to feel your presence,

I don’t need a lips to taste you a kiss..

it’s story about the revive of lonesome!

hardly to understand..

it's just things you should know,

something you believe may deceive you!

and I’m not that brilliant,

I feel the pain too

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I Don't Want to Reach That Point!

The wise said to me,

each turns you through, ups and down are things you couldn't hide,

so feel the challenges,

dare yourself for some adventures!

He also said to me..

you're not always happy,

remember that!

you're not always being accepted,

you have to realize about that!

Thousand souls means thousand views,

different cultures rank you up a million philosophies,

you're not always love your self,

it's a sad fact, but it's sometimes happen in life!

you're not always being accepted,

but it's fine as long as you appreciate who you are

Time ask you to grow up,

you couldn’t reject fate..

the hardest part is leaving one point to another point,

when one adventure has done, now go find the new one!

it's wise enough to understand!

but sometime hard to die to face!

you may want to skip some steps,

but actually nothing best than discovery it!

dare yourself, swim, jump, fly, and cry!

you were born, happy as kid, rebel like teenager, adult need maturity, be girlfriend-wife-parents,

sounds tiring? definitely yes!!

but no choice!

your favorite could be being the greatest rebel in your life,

hard to forget,  too sweet to remember,

seems like don't want to grow up anymore,

just want to stop the time!

the 'pause' button was pressed!

but it won't work in real life..

unfortunately!

more I grow up, more I understand what the pressure about,

more I know the world, more I know true friends are hard to find,

and I don't want to grow up anymore!

I just don't want!

I just want to be teenager again,

I hate the point when I have to be the adult,

they told me what I should be and it's hurt me sometimes,

but they don’t hear me when I’m sad this lonely,

they ask me to be perfect and stop asking what I want in life,

I don't want to be the mature one, I don't want to be!!

I want to be me,  “me” in this time!

stop to intervene me, I decide my own road

stop to deceive me, I drive my own plane!

and if I want to stay home, don’t ask me to leave!!

I don't want to reach that point,

the point when I'm entering the new journey,

new journey that I don’t want to understand at all,

I'm afraid of being left by other

I'm scare of crowded

It's seems worst outside

and dark within

just let me here..

I want to be teenager once again,

I want to grow up once again,

and feel that warm hug,

and listen to voice saying they love me,

watch the sun shine brighter saying,

“kid, do anything you want to!”

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Not a Perfect Angel!

Open your eyes, look at me!

I’m not a perfect little angel!

I do much mistakes,

and do feel guilty…

please forgive me...

I may disappoint you…

I didn't meant to excuse in time,

I didn't mean to hurt you,

nor about to forget our past

it’s a matter of circumstance!!

but after all I appreciate you with all you had!

so please forgive me...

I'm not a perfect little angel!

not for you.. never for anyone else!

If you hate me,

then I would never stop to be who am I,

I’M still ME,

always..

there’s nothing change,

nor something to change…

never..

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Can it Just Happen?

Can I just fly…

dream…

wish…

expect…

pray…

then tomorrow,

every teardrops change into a wide forest,

every tears turn into a bright river,

and every anger turn into beautiful edelweiss???

Can it just happen??

Can I just fly…

then tomorrow,

the sky never turn into the grey,

the night never be so dark,

and the sun shine brighter in every angle of happiness?

Can it just happen??

Can I just fly away…

then suddenly a magic happen :

the world stop and lost in a second!

Alien rules the world and human turned to be their slave..

Ohhh…. Can it just happen??

Can it just happen?

Can it just happen without a reason??

Can it just happen I beg?

Can it just….??

and it be…

The Wise stops me and said:

“Of course NO, kid!

It’s  your imagination….!”

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This is My Passion, The Journey Began- Poetry

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Feel this pressure,

Hug this tears,

Together we fall into pieces

This is my passion,

Let me burn and dying within,

Let me feel the ups and down

This is the road which I decide to escape,

from the lonely and empty,

from the cruel of this world,

from the unjusticeness,

from the limit and border,

from the people who always set me as their feed

 This is my passion

I promise to not give up,

to fight till the end…

until the last second of my breath!!!

I promise no time for complain,

I promise to build my spirit up….,

I promise won’t let anyone abuse me anymore,

won’t let them waste my emotion for their various reason,

This is my self,

Here is my passion!

I had my own waterfall on my mind,

This is my mountain to climb!

even you might not understand

but, fine, this is my journey!!

I promise to learn more each day,

I promise to not surrender,

I promise to start now,

By NOW!!

I promise to be independent,

No one can’t hold this passion,

I would chase my dream!

I promise to fly as highest as the blue sky

This is my passion,

This is my road!

This is my journey began!

I promise… someday you’ll find me  :

glad in another gateway,

Smile when you call my name!

Proud when remembered my past,

Cry when comeback home!

Everyone welcome me!

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