Writing and Pain

I write.. just write it out!

I forget the last time started this, but each time I have problem and this injury is killing me, I write my pain to get therapy for myself. I have many dark poem of myself, showing how I try to get up with my pain and move on. It was my first reason of writing my website ‘PrincessKaurvaki’ .

One day, my friend asked me whether most of the poetry is about me or other. I said may be couple of them are about me, or maybe not. She said she was surprised reading all those emotional poetry. People catch me as mature woman, look very strong outside, never complain anything and look like genius girl do anything well. No, I’m liar! I’m the biggest liar ever! You could never believe anything I said and you should not. All things you see about me could be just manipulation I made for you.

Yes, I have to say, I'm person who don't like showing my weakness and pain. I feel like they should not see my pain or my sad face. I couldn't hide it sometimes. It's killing me slowly. My mental is disturbed and I feel like the death man with live body. But still, I'm one who feels not easy to start a conversation and share my problem to other. Don't say I didn't try. I tried, but I just felt all weird and not comfort. For me, it’s never been easy. I have problem in conversation and communication with other. I do speak less.

May be I was made to be like this. May be I just have to write it out.. into a diary, into a poetry, to finally read my pain into an art and taste those pains again, but feel better because I have been higher person for myself. It’s not that I’m a good writer. I’m just the amateur one, who trying to relieve the pain and feel better when write it out.

I'm still sitting here.. with the darkness around me. It's still my best friend. It still accompanies me and waits for another poetry wrote by me. I feel empty, there's a hole inside my heart. But the ink and paper come closer to me to whisper: 

'Don't be worry, don't be sad, and don’t be mad. I'm here to be with you, be your slave, listen to you and be all you need. Just close your eyes, and I’ll be here for you, right the second you wish. We'll spread our power into your soul and at the sudden you have strength. You just have to write it out.. and you have our strength. Don’t be worry, don’t be sad. You have future in the palm of your hand. And very soon, you’re no longer feeling alone and empty'.

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Ohh... it's 5 am.

I'm awake.. It was a dream! What was I talking about??

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Suddenly January 27!!!

Suddenly January 27!! OMG, is it true? Do I forget the date or time moves way too fast?? Well, I really get surprise like I was sleeping very long time and I wake… suddenly January 27! Last time I remember to write Merry Christmas 2012, but then I lost by the time, and… suddenly January 27! What to say? I know sorry it’s not enough to replace my “new year” post in this early of 2013, but have to say.. I have nothing else, so… Happy “lately” New Year, Everyone!!

Remembering this post title, I believe I’m not alone. I mean, many people do not feel deeply each moment in their life and then they lately realize time had left them. Time moves too fast, don’t let us to enjoy each second of our life. I’m one of you. Sometimes I feel so worse and separated because I almost feel nothing for every celebration or sweet moment. But I don’t want to sink in this sadness, so what I do?? So far, nothing! I go ashtray and still try to find the answer. I only hope this new year spirit inspiring me and courage me to be a better person. I don’t have special wishes, except sometimes I really want to turn back the time and fix my mistake in the past. But we know, turn back the time is real in movie only. Ahh… of course I have realistic wishes too!! I want to write more, inspire more, gain revenue more and more happy thought In my life. I wish nothing, but the happiness. And by today, I will be more happy than yesterday. The next  day I’ll be happier, happier and happier ^_^.

Once again.. happy “lately” new year, my reader!

I love you so much….

Be blessed and Enjoy 2013…. ^.0

*Princess Kaurvaki

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Stop Complain!

“I hate people who spend their half of their 24 hours to complain.

They waste the time!

Complain never solve problem nor make up your mind.

Complain only stimulate your muscle to think twice the silly thing.

Complain add your burdened for nothing!!

Okay, let me understand you!

Everyone have problem, you’re not the only one!

If you only do complain then nothing change.

It’s fine to complain, but do important change :

Think, move and do action to change your live.

Dream is very important, set it up as your fire!

Do not shout it out, just do some action and keep going.

Then space will seems to move around you…”

( Princess Kaurvaki )

The Future to Escape The Present

“You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth :

thinking how you'll escape one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it.

You just use the future to escape the present”
 ( John Green, Looking for Alaska )

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Building & Foundation

“To make a good building, you must start it with good foundation.

To make a good foundation, you must notice each details,  from the bottom to the top, 

involve your determination, passion and hard work, also sacrifice your time.

If you still don’t understand, then learn!!

It’s impossible you can’t!!”

( Princess Kaurvaki )



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Which One, To Build or To Make?

“To building and To making is literally DIFFERENT.

To building, you need time, good foundation and involve all of yours within,

To making, you can even buy the material from anyone, then copy it almost the same,  without much effort.

 To building,  you must feel the suffering, but later it’s a great art work,

To making is instant building & instant result, you can get instant success in a glance, but you can fall into deep at  the sudden too.

Which one you choose, to build or to make??”

( Princess Kaurvaki )

Chase Over it or Let Go of It??

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Hey, folks, I just found this discussion thread on facebook fan page of “Chicken Soup for The Soul”. This is very interesting and curious me if everyone have different perception for this famous quotes from anonymous. My conclution for now about famous quotes : You deserve Your Own View. Quotes is motivating & inspiring at time, but simply, it always comes back to you. Let’s check it out!!

Peachy Centeno wrote this famous quotes from anonymous* :

“To know wheter something is meant to be yours, let go of it!

If it returns, it has always been yours to have.

If it doesn’t, it was never meant to be.”

Then Pallavie Kharade replies :

“I agree cent percent on this one!”

Vannara Hem replies too. She’s not agree with the quotes statement above and write down :

“Hmm.. for me, I thought that human should not do follow this quote. I suggest you take care everything that you have now is better than lose it and then feel regret. How long are you going to waiting for it?

Remember : You only have one life, especially life is short”

Then She added this statement too :

“Do not hope in this world has next life”

Last but not least, Vannara also said :

“For instance, when you see a diamond ring on the road, you will you pick it up or not (: … lolz “

Nobody replies anymore, but then I save this discussion thread because for me it’s quite interesting. I even didn’t do any editing on it. I totally agree with Vannara that we should chase over it than let go of it. And again, I love her statement when she said “You only have one life, especially life is short. Do not hope in this world has next life!”

Awesome! What do you think, guys? Which one you choose?

 
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Please Understand!!

“If I don’t want to be disturbed,

it means that I really don’t want to be disturbed.

 Please understand!!”

( Princess Kaurvaki )

Hey, Do Not Hesitate! -Emotional Quotes

“You are wasting a time,

really wasting a time…

when think best for me, while I don’t think it’s best for me!!

Hey, do not hesitate!!!

I just wanna live!”

( Princess Kaurvaki )

Every of you have different perspective in seeing things. I would love to stand on my choice no matter it would look bad in other's view. I would jump to the valley from the highest mountain to accomplish my mission and pursue my dream. I live with passion and that's the reason why I was here and excited with tomorrow. I wouldn't go for your choices no matter you try hard to pursue me. Do not hesitate, I was born to be my self, with my unique character to color your rainbow and blossom your day. Do not hesitate, give me some respect and let me completely moving forward on my talent. You will see me higher by giving more space and freedom to raise my voice! Don’t be worry, I’m so fine, angel!

 

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Happy New Year 2012, Everyone!

Dear everyone, my friend and lovely readers, I know I should post this right on 00.00 of the date changing December 31^st 2011 – January 1^st 2011 like any other site, but again I’m late!! Pfiuhhh… so sorry! I just wake up late in the January1^st since had my new year celebration with my neighborhood in the middle of night. Then I have to go to Shopping Centre since my refrigerator is empty and I have nothing to eat –how poor me! So, the second day of 2012 is my chance to open my best friend, my notebook to post this greeting and share it to the world. 

HAPPY PLEASANT NEW YEAR 2012!!

  When this moment come, time seems like moves very fast and don’t allow us to looking back and regret anything. I hope everyone can enjoy this new year and celebrate it with happiness feeling. Let’s colour the new year with more spirit, better attitude and great achievement. Some New Year Resolution is very need, so don’t forget to check out my previous article about New Year, New Resolution, Plan to be a Better Person!

* Princess Kaurvaki

Learning from Ratatouille -Inspiration

Learning from Ratatouille The Movie:

The Rat were The Great Chef when It Talent Meet with The Chance.

Don't judge people ability from their grade!

Most of time, money works harder than brain and strong willing.

Einstein and Edhison didn't need degree to change the world!

and they made things work much better than those graduated student.

Why people do not seems to understand?

( Princess Kaurvaki )